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Pilfered from streamweaver:

We think that we know so much about one another through LiveJournal, but chances are good that we know less than we think. Ask me something you believe you should know about me, something that should be obvious, but that you have no idea about.

Then, post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you.


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Jan. 10th, 2006 08:38 pm (UTC)
What is your goal in studying aspects of computer gaming?
Jan. 10th, 2006 09:49 pm (UTC)
Well, I'd say that my husband truly studies the mechanics and components of game design ... he's more of a student of that. My area of interest is perhaps a smaller subset of that: what aspects of gameplay specifically appeal to female gamers, and how to make a game that has genuine appeal for both genders, or at least manages not to alienate one while appealing to the other. I'm interested in gamer psychology and behaviors in online space.

I do so wish that someone would either do a big study or fund us to design a big, really comprehensive study to get some answers that were based on good scientific design and hard evidence. I have plenty of evidence from talking with people and other sources, but I'd like something really definitive to shove under the noses of people who still believe, to this day, that women don't play computer games!

Thanks for the meme, and for the question! :)
Jan. 11th, 2006 12:54 pm (UTC)
OK, here we go ....

I've known you longer than just about anyone, and over that time I've noticed your politics drift decidedly to the left. You've always been to the left of me, but I've noticed over the course of the years that we've agreed less and less about certain positions I'd characterize as far-left.

Do you even agree that you've shifted? Or would you suggest that I've drifted to the right? If you agree, do you think it's a reaction to D's decided conservatism, or is it something else?
Jan. 11th, 2006 03:28 pm (UTC)
Not to sound pretentious, but I think I'm in kind of a post-modern place in terms of politics. Demosthenian was such an accelerated course in that, that I feel like I've heard just about every basic position there is. I think it bugs D. a bit, because that experience makes me look at positions with a lot of detachment, where he gets all passionate and riled.

I don't think I've necessarily shifted very much in my beliefs, but I will say that my philosophy courses often times gave me additional or new reasons for a given perspective. My suspicion about the origin of this question is that what you're seeing is not a shift to the left, but more that that is the position that I give voice to in order to provide counterpoint to D., because he always argues from the right. In other words, if I didn't make him justify his positions, we'd just be sitting there saying "Yes, I agree," which would be boring.

As far as my true, non-devil's advocate perspectives, they remain middling libertarian (little L). I support agendas the ideas of enlightened self-interest and legal action that allows for autonomous actions that do not cause provable harm, or, even when they do cause tangible harm, if that action occurs between two consenting, mentally stable adults, then it's nobody's business but their own. I still believe in balance, and don't like it when the pendulum swings too far one way or the other.

My current problem is that D. is just hugely interested in politics right now -- it's a near-nightly conversation for us -- and I am, frankly, bored by it. I just feel so "been there, done that." I've gotten old enough to have lived through some of the cycles now, and to see some of the common elements. There's precious little that works me up to the point of a rant, and I'm mostly tired of hearing other people's, because it's so rare that I hear anything new. The Left trots out their side, the Right trots out their side, and it's just completely predictable.

Right now, I'm moving in other directions that I consider to be more constructive. Just verbally masturbating about politics doesn't do anything any more. None of us are in positions to immediately affect change on a global level, and I haven't learned anything new in a political discussion in a long time, so hyperanalysis it doesn't help with my mental growth. Acting locally is the only thing that provides potentially positive tangible results, but there's no point in me getting involved in an organization right now because we keep trying to move from where we are. What's the point of joining something in Sandy Springs when we're trying to go elsewhere? So, activism and political discussion isn't really where my head is at right now, because I see no tangible benefit from it. The words don't turn into action.

In short, if you're hearing something more left-leaning from me, it's likely to be me indulging D.'s interest by providing something for him to have dialogue about -- I'm not really involved in it, truth be told. My real commitments lie fairly close to where they've been for a long time. I've questioned them enough along the way that I'm comfortable and secure in them as a core foundation.

It's not that I don't give a damn -- I do, but I'm a little more demanding about results. If I'm going to bother to expend energy about a particular cause, I want to see something more from it than just talk around the table. I'm not interested in personal reenactments of "Crossfire." The discussion is not worthwhile in and of itself any more, because it doesn't change anything.

If we're just all self-indulgently airing our own opinions, which we've all heard numerous times before, then, frankly, I'd rather discuss a good glass of wine. I get more tangible benefit from that, truth be told. If D. finds a peppery flavor, that's something I can look for if I'm not finding it on my own, and vice-versa.

Jan. 11th, 2006 03:28 pm (UTC)
(more, cause LJ said my previous post exceeded comment length)

It's not even that discussion isn't constructive ... I just find that other discussions are a lot more constructive for me personally than politics, because I'm more likely to hear new things and, thus, learn. With politics, it's almost a given that I've heard it before somewhere at some time, and I don't learn or gain enlightenment from excessive repetition.

It's not disinterest, it's not a lack of caring, it's just more like having taken the same class four or five times from the same professor, with all the same classmates each time. We've pretty much exhausted the possibilities, we're in the diminishing returns area, and it's time to move on to something else for a little while until there's something new to achieve.
Jan. 11th, 2006 03:45 pm (UTC)
More evidence for my overall recent boredom with politics: I haven't made a post on something directly related to it since the very beginning of September. My focus seems to be on almost anything but that right now. Maybe I'll have more of an appetite for it after we find a house, but maybe not, too.
Jan. 12th, 2006 06:36 pm (UTC)
Do you have a southern accent?


I know you're 35, and I've read that you might want children. What are your thoughts on this? And the timing?
Jan. 12th, 2006 09:37 pm (UTC)
That's two questions, you know. :) I'll count one for you, and one for D., given his, erm, earlier sacrifices. :)

Many people I meet are surprised when they learn that I'm from Georgia. "But you don't have a Southern accent!" they exclaim. It's true: my only verbal "tell" that I'm from this part of the country is my tendency to use the word y'all. Otherwise, my years spent in the theatre and in radio tend to override the tendency to drawl, although I suspect it may resurface as the years go by.

Speaking of years going by, I strongly suspect I'll go through this life without children. Time is running out. Were we already settled and in a house, my answer might -- might -- be different, however, being this age and feeling no real longing suggests that it's probably not going to happen. I feel like I ought to, but a sense of societal obligation is not exactly the foundation for a loving, nurturing environment, so it's not a good enough reason.

Were I to suddenly change my mind, my personal cut-off age to be pregnant by would be 38, which is less than three years away ... and part of why I really suspect it ain't gonna happen. Had we been in one by the time I was 35, might've been a different scenario, but things didn't go that way.
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